Mariah Carey has bravely spoken about her battle with bipolar II disorder for the first time.The singer, 48, told PEOPLE that she ‘lived in denial’ and ‘constant fear of being exposed’ after her 2001 diagnosis, after she was hospitalized for a physical and mental breakdown.
She said: “I didn’t want to believe it… Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me. It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn’t do that anymore. I sought and received treatment.”
The mother of six-year-old twins Moroccan and Monroe, from her marriage to Nick Cannon, explained that she is feeling positive about the future.
“I’m actually taking medication that seems to be pretty good. It’s not making me feel too tired or sluggish or anything like that. Finding the proper balance is what is most important. For a long time I thought I had a severe sleep disorder… It turns out that I was experiencing a form of mania… I guess my depressive episodes were characterized by having very low energy. I would feel so lonely and sad.”
In 2001, it was revealed that Mariah was undergoing psychiatric treatment in hospital after a nervous breakdown and a suspected suicide attempt, which her publicist denied at the time. Her spokeswoman Cindy Berger had said that Mariah had cancelled all public appearances after experiencing an ’emotional and physical breakdown’.